avoidance

Haven't posted anything for a while, so I guess I'll put up something. I miraculously managed to get a two day weekend... and I haven't left the house since Saturday night. For a while, it was great. I did whatever I felt like doing and enjoyed the rest and the quiet. Then, I started going insane again. An emotional wreck. It's hard to believe I lived for almost two years like this. I guess maybe the alcohol got me through until it failed me as well.

Well, I have nothing to say. I'm just a bundle of wordless fears right now. I had a couple of blog posts written out in my head last week, but they've either slipped away from my memory or I've grown too afraid to post them.