hello again.

Has it been two weeks since I last posted here?

I guess so. It seems that I've gotten out of some new habits and into some old ones... not all the way, but a bit. Not drinking or smoking or the rest, but mostly into a state of mind. My sense of humor has taken on a caustic tone that I never thought would resurface.... my sexual ruminations have become more deviant... and I'm overcome by an overall sense of restlessness.

If I can't shake it, I guess I'll just wait it out. I don't really like who I used to be, but I do miss what it was like to feel alive... and I wonder if I'll ever feel that way as the "normal" person I'm striving to be.