I am still right here
"Whatever happens at all happens as it should."
- Marcus Aurelius
I've been feeling the time has finally come to be the person whom I've wanted to be.
Just thought I'd say hello to an old friend. I've been sad again, and I know that it will listen.
To check in with everyone and no one:
It seems a few people do stop by here from time to time so I suppose I shall update.
They've been some crazy, crazy months. Endings, resumptions, pushing new boundaries.
Once again, life is starting to get interesting...
I haven't been to an AA meeting in a couple years now, but today is one of those days where the phrase "I need a meeting!" keeps running through my head.
I came close -- very close -- to letting someone who knows my name and my face become aware of this blog's existence.
I'm why your eyes and ears are about to be bombarded with ads.
Father broke down finally and I had to check him into rehab. Being the grown up sucks.
Due to the fact that I never could get my old template to look right with Firefox and because it feels like time for a change, I've switched over to a more conventional template. Things here are going along as they have been; staying with the same job, finishing up my degree, still with my girlfriend.
I guess I've acquired another addiction for my collection.
I feel awful, absolutely awful.
Feeling blue. I don't like time changes. Now I get up in the dark, and the day just seems to start out gloomily.
Feeling sad for whatever reason. It just seems that wherever I look forward all I see are dead ends. It feels like I already killed a chance at a normal life and the chances of a happy or fulfilling one are seeming remote.
Maybe I'll just sit here and write until the meds kick in, like I did back in the good old days. I've been reading some of my old posts just a few minutes ago and its good to have something down that can be bring me back to where I was. It's a strange feeling... it really does feel like it was written by someone else.