Sunday, April 26, 2009

at the heart of it all

Just thought I'd say hello to an old friend. I've been sad again, and I know that it will listen.

Sad as it is, the fundamental truth remains beneath everything else. For all the gleaming facades I build up over it, in my heart of hearts I believe: in the end, everything dies and none of us matter.

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At 5/25/2009 9:12 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello again, I've followed this blog for a long time.
Like a friend it has kept me sane, helping to peel away the lonely and letting me see the light even just for a second or so.
I feel the same many people tell me I'm a nihlist or existentialist, but no matter where it leads me the truth still pains me, to understand the meaningless of our existence and hopelesness of continued living.
I once thought that enlightenment and knowledge cures all fears and pain but so far it has led me to understand how pointless it all is, a universe of accident and random acts, no real reason, just us on this planet, no reason for the pain I feel.
sorry for the depressing comment but things just seem to get worse and I just seem to get more numb.
hope to hear from you soon.

 
At 9/01/2009 2:58 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is true everything dies and none of us matters. But let us live in the present.
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At 11/10/2009 10:34 PM, Blogger celestial blue said...

I'm still checkin in on you from time to time.... so be sure to check in with us. ;-)

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