the line begins to blur

I am a mess, an absolute fucking mess. I can't stop eating. It's like I've totally transferred my smoking habit to this. And the other addiction... I'm pushing the envelope, I'm tearing down a firewall I built up.

Sometimes I just wish I'd just fall completely over one side or the other. This is a painful balancing act.

I guess I'll just keep praying and try to get up the nerve to go to a psychologist and say, "help." I don't know what else to do.